I just moved into my new place. I love it.

I turned in my keys today, and walked through my old apartment for the last time. After all of the furniture and stuff was gone, it didn't even look like the place I'd lived in. It felt like such a lonely place all summer. I would sometimes feel so sad coming back there at the end of a nice weekend.

Now I come home to a full apartment, with cats and a roommate. I feel more at home here than I did at the old place.

My dad can fly out here anytime. I almost want to save it up and just go home and see the whole family at Christmas. It feels like I'd be spoiling myself, to ask my dad to fly to CA and then see him again in December. I need to save this comfort of knowing my dad can come at any time. The idea of seeing my family again makes me feel so much joy. I knew I would miss them, but I never knew it would be like this!

My grandmother's 80th birthday was last week. She and I talked for awhile, and she asked me about the freeways in California. She was amazed to know that they can be up to five or six lanes (one way!) and I think that knowing that may have scared her a little. That is part of why I love her so much. She is so impressed with the boring routine parts of my life. I hope I can be like that, if I live to be 80.

I had strange dreams last night. I hope tonight its easier.

I am hoping to move here:
http://www.villagepointe.com/index.asp

It is in Northridge, close to where I live now and close to my job. The roommate I would live with is super awesome. If we can make the deposit and get all the paperwork in by tomorrow then its pretty much a done deal. There are other people from Palmdale trying to get the place, but hopefully we have the advantage by being closer. Plus the roommate already lives there, which helps as well.

Its pretty, and the apartment is nicely sized. Wish me luck!

Hey cool I forgot I started this thing.

I've lived in California a year! Go me!

I know, who cares? But its been no small feat. This year has been full of wonderful and awful experiences, but overall, I'm so happy to be here. I wouldn't change a thing, and I mean that.

I'm still looking for a roommate for the end of August, but I met someone really awesome tonight. We met via crazy psychic potential roommate. This guy totally read my aura and stuff, but it wasn't meant to be. I did, however, meet someone else who was there to see the house. She lives in Northridge, and is in a situation very similar to mine. She lives in a one bedroom that she can no longer afford to live in, and has to be out this month. Two bedrooms with a roommate are much more affordable than studios/one bedrooms alone, so I'm relieved.

A cross country road trip to Boston this December is in the works. Certainly I would visit good old Maryland as well.

I spent this past weekend visiting San Diego for the second time. It was fantastic. I'm so happy about so many things right now.

As I try to fill
All of my empty days
I stumble round
On through my memory's maze
Over my past
Only the sadness stays

I went moping down by the bridge
I rode a bike in the snow to the mini-mart
I thought of the ways
That I had broke my own heart

Well, its not for me
To fill the blue sea with tears
But when I think back
All of the wasted years
All the good cheer
And all of the charm disappears

As I try to fill
All of my empty days
I stumble round
On through my memory's maze
Over my past
Only the sadness stays

I'm really happy that tomorrow is Friday. This has been a really awful week. I talked to my mom a lot though, which helps a ton, but makes me feel really homesick. Round trip tickets are in the $300 range. Though if my dad visits I am sure that will help. Plus I should save my money to travel to places I've never been to before. I was looking a bunch of pictures I took last summer yesterday, which makes me miss it so much.

I should try to go hiking this weekend, all week I've felt like I'm stuck in a really small space. pbbt.

Because I have one of the most common names in this country. I had no choice but to add ys and ls.

My friend keeps all of his live journal posts private so I had to infiltrate.